Monday, August 13, 2007

I miss peoples

So she's gone home now. My sister left us this morning at 5am to catch her flight home. I got a chance to chat with her for a bit before my computer was rudely disconnected and then bedtime struck. Now I'm sitting here, hours later and I miss them both.

I'm thinking of Stephanie and how 2 years ago she seemed to be getting her things finally figured out. She was gonna head back to school, she was looking at dresses and Josh was looking at rings with her for a possible engagement announcement...an announcement which didn't come until she was stricken and unable to mouth the words herself. Then when she passed, this kind man whom I was going to call my brother, decided that the easiest way for him to deal with the pain was to cut me and my family out of his life. Oh I'm sure if I made a call, he might answer it, but with so many emails and event invitations gone unanswered, I figure a call isn't needed to get the hint.

Now Rachel is back home and facing my mother who I'm not too happy with at the moment. Every time we mend the fences you have to go and do something to tear them down again. Why? Do you enjoy the drama? Cause I'm not sure how much more of it I can take. I'll leave it there for now. There's so much more in my head but none of it for public consumption I think. Let's leave it to the clear and obvious point that I'm well on Rachel's side in this matter and nothing but undeniable evidence to the contrary will sway me.

Anyways, so as I said, here I sit missing my sisters and wishing they were both seated here next to me. Oh well. Someone ugly once said "You can't always get what you want." I've already got what I need...my wonderful wife Victoria. Still, a piece of my heart died with Stephanie and Rachel's absence has left another small hole. I can still feel happy so Rachel if you're reading this don't worry. Your brother will be just fine. It's just when I think about you I miss you and I can't wait until next year when you'll visit us again.

Well...until then...I've waited too long to head to bed. It's 2 hours later than I wanted to go to sleep. So much to do this week to clean the apartment properly and get it back in order. So tired. Good night everyone. Never take advantage of those you love. Cherish every moment that you are in their presence...even if they're annoying you or if they piss you off. Rachel never upset us while she was here but some loved ones have a tendency to do that sometimes.

1 Comments:

At 5:19 PM , Blogger FreeThinker said...

Bite the tongue and minimize regrets!

 

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