Thursday, February 15, 2007

Life...heaven and hell

So much has changed in just the last 3 weeks.

The hell: I've lost a friend (at least for a time), I've lost a cousin, lost a boss and friend in one swift move by upper management and I haven't taken very many photographs so my skills are beginning to rust a bit.
The heaven: I've gained a lot of self respect. I've gotten more involved in church. I even joined the ward choir. Yes I can sing. Stop laughing. I swear I can. I even play trumpet but there's little room for that in the ward. Might be able to apply it for Stake Easter or Christmas programs. That is, when I'm not singing. I'm reading my scriptures, praying regularly and getting to church nearly every Sunday and not just for Sacrament Meeting but all three hours PLUS choir practice AND we're greeters so that's a nearly 5 hour commitment every Sunday. I wake up actually WANTING to go to church which is a big big change from even a couple months ago. I'm sure that won't last.
I've dropped a lot of old habits, replaced them with good new ones and I'm working on taking care of the rest of my bad habits including judging, pride, cursing, being lazy as it pertains to exercising and also I need to eat healthy including eliminating pop, corn syrup, fried foods, fast food and other junk from my diet. Replace all this with an eternal perspective and healthy food, exercise and a deeper appreciation for the things and people around me. I really want to have that temple recommend before too long. I'm hoping by the end of the year but sooner would certainly be better. It just opens the door to so many more things in my life that are important to me. Ordinances, work and lessons to be taught that I know will be very important to my spiritual growth. I know some of you will be elated at this news. Others might be furious at me. Most of you will be happy for me whether or not you agree with it. It makes me happy and I think it makes me a better person. A better husband, son, brother, cousin, nephew, grandson, friend, acquaintance, co-worker, former classmate, etc etc etc.
Well...it's midnight and I have work tomorrow. I really should hit the pillow. I just haven't written in a while and i felt I needed to add something. Take care everyone.